A fly on our wall…
Sister: Yeah, when the news broke it was the #1 Read Story on Bloomberg.
Little Sohn: (to Big Sohn) Woah, you’re famous!
Big Sohn: I’ve been.
Little Sohn: (to Big Sohn patting him on head) Yeah. But one day I’ll be more famous than you.
(awkward silence)
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Mama and Papa Sohn: (with deep concern) We thinking maybe we visit you this week, maybe one day you have no class, when you free?
Little Sohn: Why?
Mama and Papa Sohn: Because we want to see you. Maybe have talk.
Little Sohn: About what? If it’s about dating, then don’t come, I don’t want to hear it. (storms out of room to kitchen)
(5 minutes later)
So are you coming?
Mama and Papa Sohn: No.
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Baby Sohn: Aunt M, when are you getting married?
Little Sohn: I don’t know sweetie, do you know a good guy you can set me up with?
Baby Sohn: Umm, you can marry a doll!
Little Sohn: A doll?!
Baby Sohn: No!! A dog!
Little Sohn: Even better!
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Over text with Mama Sohn re: family vacation to Bermuda…
Little Sohn: Ok you’ll give me some alone time on the trip right? I don’t want us to fight! :)
Mama Sohn: IF YOU WANT, but you want to go breakfast lunch alone? what that mean?
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Oh, family. Gotta love them!
Amafaaweperful God
I have been thinking a lot recently about generosity of spirit. What is means to not let fear of being judged get in the way of your being generous to the world with the gifts and talents God has given you. To put yourself out there out of inspiration from the Lord Almighty to encourage even just one being - a tree, a dog, a cat, a mouse or dare I say, a human! - takes great courage but as the spirit has been reminding 180, perfect love casts out all fear so get over yourself and soar damnit!
That said, I am so grateful for the generosity of the artists at Hillsong United. Thank you for sharing a song with me that speaks the words of my heart so perfectly. I breathe in every lyric and chord hoping to breathe out something just as beautiful in God’s own way for me. Thank you God for giving everyone such a diverse array of talents, your creativity is boundless! You are quite simply amazing. No you are quite simply [insert a word that expresses greaterness than amazing, fantastic, awesome, perfect, wonderful]!
Hillsong United, Like An Avalanche
Verse 1
Beautiful God
Laying Your majesty aside
You reached out in love to show me life
Lifted from darkness into light
Oh
Verse 2
King for a slave
Trading Your righteousness for shame
Despite all my pride and foolish ways
Caught in Your infinite embrace
Oh
Chorus 1
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compares to this love love love
Burning in my heart
[Verse 3:]
Saviour and Friend
Breathing Your life into my heart
Your word is the lamp unto my path
Forever I’m humbled by Your love
Oh
Bridge
Take my life
Take all that I am
With all that I am I will love You
Take my heart
Take all that I have
Jesus how I adore You
Chorus 2
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compare to this love love love
Fight Club
This week I’ve been feeling like I’m in a place of spiritual malaise. Funny, b/c last week I was coming to God with such a grateful heart! It’s not that I feel completely separated from Him b/c I know He’s with me, I feel His presence even though I am desperately trying to shut him out. I feel pulled, spread way thin and God is asking for even more of me and I’m struggling to give him ALL OF ME. The fight feels different this time though b/c I refuse to give into these attacks of the enemy. God has a calling for my life and for Him, not me, I must say yes and fly. And let go of all fear that holds me back - of my potential, of the unknown, of trusting God with my life, of loving God and others fully and letting go of all this baggage and self-protection I’ve accumulated over the years. I have some very heavy, overloaded suitcases way past the weight limit that I’ve been carrying around for years and years, and it’s time to check my bags in even if I’m charged a fee. The cost is nothing compared to the jewels of Heaven I’ll be dressed with when I meet my maker at the true beginning of my life.
God’s so funny. Like seriously - he’s a weirdo, the way He chooses to talk to us is so OUT THERE, holy cow! And this morning, He reminded me of this children’s song I used to sing growing up - I don’t think I’ve thought about it in years! But it expresses the tension in my heart these days so well. Spiritual growth is SO slow going but as P Sam said this week, it’s b/c our father loves us SO much and knows us SO well - he might feel awful saying no but it would hurt Him and us more to give us what we wanted when we’re not ready. I am grateful for his discernment. I would be so much more of a mess if he gave me everything I wanted every time I threw a tantrum, screaming out “GOD WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU-AAAAAAAA, I WANT IT AND I WANT IT NOW-AAAAAAAAA!”
Little by Little
He’s changing me, my precious Jesus
I’m not the same person that I used to be
Some times it’s slow going
but there’s a knowing
That one day perfect I will be
Little by little everyday
Little by little everyway
My Jesus is changing me
Since I’ve made a turn about faith
I’ve been walking in His grace
My Jesus is changing me
random question
darn, times like these i wish i had facebook…
does anyone have (or know anyone who has) a teacher’s pointing stick? i need one for my monologue. please help, anyone, thanks!
happy happy
i’m trying something new this morning. it’s called positive thinking, i’ll let you know if it works.
I AM SO HAPPY TO BE AT WORK THIS MORNING. WORK IS AWESOME. I LOVE DOING WORK. I’M SO SO HAPPY TO BE HERE I CAN’T CONTAIN THE JOY. I LOVE DEALING WITH DEMANDING AND EGOTISTICAL PEOPLE. IT’S ALL JUST DANDY. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE DOING WITH MY TIME. NOTHING!!! OMG YAY!!!!!!!!!!
The Yin to my Yang
Even though I can be so bad, you always remain so good.
Even though I can be so unfaithful, you are always so faithful.
Even though I am so small, you are so big.
Even though I am so weak, you are so strong.
Monday Blues. I wonder if anyone starts the week out thinking, yayyyyyyyyyy work! Surely not I.
You know why life feels so hard sometimes? B/c we’re just a bunch of f’ed up people trying to f each other up even more. So thank God for Jesus. Otherwise, we would have no example of pure and unconditional love. As I begin to accept his love into my heart more and more, I’m more and more turned off by the world’s coldness and selfishness. But he tells me to jump right into the middle of all the world’s drama and love them even more. Risk pain for his glory. So I accept the mission, afraid to death that I’ll come out broken into pieces b/c my past tells me that is what will happen. But now he is my protector and I can take whatever shit is thrown at me b/c his love will restore me time and time again.
Am I allowed to curse on tumblr? fuck fuck fuck you cocksucker asshole bitch motherfucker piece of shit but fine, I’ll still love you b/c he tells me to forgive and love even more. Gosh, that feels good. hahaa.
